its 12:09AM and i still have CAT training tomorrow, i mean later. you may even ask, why am i still up typing all these phrases that no one will even bother to read? right now i can't really decipher the answer and since i'm sleepy, i'll make this a short and straightforward post.
i'm happy. i'm sad.
happy. the DLMO won. our CAT's fancy drill was declared first. and the girls and boys platoon got some awards too. plus, traslacion. can you even describe the view at the top of the metropolitan cathedral? and though in this procession you have to smell what you shouldn't smell, the undescribable devotion of the bicolanos will make you forget that. i am happy. and the reasons are cited. DONE.
sad. earlier yesterday, i was in grieve depression. i was so miserable that i even attempted to incise my pulses. i'm not kidding, not at all. but instead, i bruised the other side of my arm. so if you'll come near me, a long scar is so downrightly visible. and oh, i also planned, just in my mind, my last will and testament. as bob ong says it, 'dito mo ipunin lahat nang galit mo at walang silang magagawa tungkol dito.' thus, i did. i blamed everyone who caused that displeasing misery. and all the bad words that were in my dictionary were found there.
before i forgot, i also thought of drinking alcohol, isopropyl alcohol. i even asked my brother if i'll go straight to death if i drink it. he said he don't know so i removed that from my list.DONE.
i'm done! and it's 12:39AM. i guess a typical 6-hour sleep will be fine. damn, looking back, i really do have some nasty mood swings. tsk3. adios!
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